The Cost of Fear: How Holding Back Your Dreams Can Cost You Everything

I had a vision when I started this entrepreneurial journey.

It was big—so big. I dreamed without limits, wanting so much. My vision was vast, and I wanted it all.

But as I’ve become more successful, my vision has expanded in ways I never anticipated. I thought success would transform my outer world, making it look completely different. Yet, from the outside looking in, some might say I’ve regressed. What I’ve learned, though, is that before the external pieces can fall into place, my inner world has to expand first. And that has been my journey over the last few years.

Over time, I have achieved what I once asked for—the pup, the beautiful rentals, the relationships, the experiences. It all came to fruition.

But no one tells you that once you achieve your vision, you can’t stop. If you do, everything begins to erode. You have to keep dreaming bigger.

And that part is terrifying.

I reached my first major entrepreneurial milestone about three years into my business.

I had the team.

I had the clients.

I had the revenue.

I had the time.

But then I hit a ceiling. I had two options—stand still or dream bigger.

I was scared, so I didn’t do it. I kept the lid on the box. And because I refused to expand, my vision started to crumble around me. I let relationships into my life that drained me. My business went into debt. My health suffered. My finances, my relationships—every part of my life took a hit.

All because I was afraid to dream of more. Because I didn’t want to be stuck in the in-between again.

The in-between—that space where you’re living the dreams you once worked for but waiting for the next ones to unfold.

No one tells you how hard the in-between is.

How lonely it can feel.

Right now, I’m in another in-between moment. But even in this space, I don’t feel alone. My mentors at Living In Balance Seminars (LIB) have been my anchor, making sure I keep going—even when every part of me wants to stop. When fear whispers that if I ask for more, I’ll lose what I already have.

But here’s what I’ve learned:

The visions that once felt like everything eventually become visions I outgrow.

The more I take ownership of my life and future, the more this happens. And I wouldn’t have had the strength to push through without the women who have walked this path before me—women who mentor me through the good, the bad, and the ugly, without judgment. Women who hold space for me when I need to cry it out—because trust me, there are a lot of tears.

When I drained myself from over-giving, when my business fell into debt so deep I couldn’t see a way out, they stood beside me. They didn’t let me give up.

And today, two days before BNL’s Birthday -  I can finally say:

BNL is profitable again.

After two years of figuring out how to flip the boat, we did it.

This year, I’m celebrating:

• 9 years as an entrepreneur

• 7 years as a woman in the Living In Balance space

• 6 years as the CEO of an incorporated business

It’s a big year.

And I couldn’t have done any of it without the support of the women I choose to call my entrepreneur family at Living In Balance Seminars - within the amazing LIB programs they have helped me expand my inner capacity in ways I never imagined and for that I am forever grateful.  💙